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[thirtythird]

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[dothelokimotion]

[ loki manages a weak nod. ]

Of course.

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You are my husband.

[Even now, it's a wonderful truth to be able to murmur against Loki's skin.]

You are my choice. You are my joy.

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki chokes out a sob as he curls closer around william. ]

Mine.

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Ah, mo chuisle.

[There's no elegance to tucking his husband in against himself. It doesn't matter. What matters is being warm and solid and real, holding just a hair tighter than comfortable so that the sensation will linger.]

[dothelokimotion]

[ he presses his face to the nape of william's neck, letting the shivers run its course. ]

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There's a love.

[This aches. This rips at the heart. This will pass, and that certainty makes it easy to keep a steady heartbeat and even breath, lips pressing soft deliberate kisses against Loki's hair.]

[dothelokimotion]

[ in a low whisper. ]

Never doubt. That I — That I — never doubt.

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[His breath comes in a soft puff, nose nudging into its familiar spot at his husband's temple.]

I know.

[It's impossible not to worry. It's difficult not, in the odd moment of self-doubt, to forget.

But, at his core, he knows.]

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki visibly struggles, tripping over his words in a hoarse whisper. but it needs to be said, he has to say it. he cannot go on without saying them, without william knowing. ]

Never doubt . . . that I love you.

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[Odd, how wonderful things can knock the breath from one's lungs. Strange, how being curled tight against such immense hurts can be brightened with the crystallization of a known truth.

There's knowing, perhaps, and there's knowing.

Almost in spite of himself, his lips twist up at the corners, twitching against Loki's skin.]

I know it. I feel it. Always.

[dothelokimotion]

[ that's probably as much as he can manage, for now. the tension bleeds out of him and loki simply presses himself tightly against william. he places his forehead near william's wedding ring, the metal digging into his skin. ]

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[They can rest in the moment for a little while. They can breathe here, solid and real.

William shifts just slightly, to murmur more properly against his husband's skin.]

Please know how much I love you.

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki gives a faint nod. though he is a doubter by nature, by the life he's led. the lies that he was told that made him believe he was never worth the truth. any truth.

but he believes this. ]

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[It's a start. It's something to cling to when building out the foundations.]

It's true now. It will be true tomorrow. It will be true when your heart is ready to hold something free of doubt. [A delicate press of lips before he shifts to burrow in more properly, tangled and close.] While there's breath in my lungs and after it.

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki smiles, tremulous. ]

Certainty after each day.

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That's right, my pulse.

[That's what feels the most like love, really.]

end here?

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki's grip tightens in response. ]

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